Dear Dazai,

I’m changing things this week, I’m going to do things differently, shift gears and step one foot outside of my very comfortable comfort zone. For one week. Starting Monday, I’m going to do some things that I keep promising myself I will.

First, I’m going to organise one thing a day, a draw, a shelf, something that I’ve been meaning to do, I’m going to organise it. Then at the end of the week, when I’ve sorted through everything, I’m going to organise to donate or throw out the things I’m simply not using anymore.

Secondly, I promise myself that I’m going to read more. The bookshelf by my bed is quite literally overflowing, and I’m going to sit down this week, and read seven books. It won’t matter how long they are, how high they are on my to read list, I’m going to read exactly seven of them.

Thirdly, I’ve started on a new project, so I want to allocate two hours a day to work on it. To sit down and stare hopelessly at the blank page until I get the courage to put one word in front of the other. Hopefully, but the end of the week, I’ll have something to show for my efforts, maybe not much, but something.

Fourthly, I’ve been hopeless with my editing, so I want to make sure there’s a chapter of Beatrice edited by the end of the week. One whole chapter so I can post it next Sunday for the tiny amount of people who’re reading it, because I’ve been so slack and I want to be better at it.

Finally, I want to drink two different teas a day, because I have a whole shelf, three of them actually, filled with tea and I don’t drink them as often as I would like to. I’m lazy so it’s easier to have a glass of water than it is to make myself a cup of tea, but I want to embrace the ceremony of it.

If I fail at this, I won’t be angry or upset, I’ll know that maybe I’ve bitten off more than I could chew and that’s ok. Sometimes we set goals that are out of our reach at this moment, but it doesn’t mean it always will be. But I want to start the week with the mindset that it’s worth trying to do these things. Worth aiming for this when I have the chance.

Having said that, in addition, I’m going to be blogging every day, just to give a quick update about how I’m going and to make sure I’m being held to account. So make sure to check in as the week progresses, to see how I’m going. There might be some other bonus material pop-up as well, just for the fun of it.

Thanks again to everyone who reads this, I know that I’m often quite introspective and I don’t interact much, but it really does mean a whole lot to know that there are people who read and enjoy my work.

And to Dazai, who’s been a wonderful muse and confidant.



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