Dear Dazai (all you supportive people!),
My day has progressed a little bit differently than the other days this week, and I haven’t kept up with some of the things that I’ve been doing, but for good reason. Sometimes we get so invovled in the things we’re doing we forget that it’s just as important to make time for the people in our lives. The ones that sometimes we don’t get to see as often.
So that’s what I did today, I caught up with a friend, one I haven’t seen since not long after she got out of hospital and it was nice to have a normal evening with her. We usually have dinner on a Wednesday night, and it was nice to recapture some of that, given we haven’t had the chance to do it for a couple of months. It was also wonderful that she was feeling up to it, because that’s more important than anything else.
As I made time to do this awesomeness, I didn’t have time to organise today, but given I’ve already organised 6/7 things I was hoping to this week, I think I can let myself have a day off today. It’s also meant that I haven’t had as much time to devote to either writing or editing, so I’ll make those up tomorrow. So I’m considering what I achieved worthwhile even if I haven’t had as much time to devote to it.
Having said that, I have managed to write a couple of opening scenes for the new project. I’m not getting ahead of myself, even though I’m quite pleased with them, because it’s so much easier to start something than it is to finish it. This is the bit where everything is sparkly and lovely, and I know exactly what I want to be doing at th is point. I’ve been here and I know that it’ll soon be replaced with self-doubt, uncertainty and the near-constant need for validation. Nathaniel is terribly patient with me when I hit that stage, and I can’t thank him enough for that.
As for Beatrice, I’ve come further than I thought I had. There’s still a lot of work to be done, but I’m more confident that I’ll have a new chapter to post on Sunday.
As for books, I read two beautiful books last night when I went to bed. Both anthologies of poetry, and even if you aren’t someone who usually reads poetry, I think they’re worth the read. The first was ‘the princess saves herself at the end’ by Amanda Lovelace and it’s one of the most spectacular collections of poetry I’ve ever read. It invoked such a vivid and broad range of emotions with so few exceptionally chosen words. There’s a trigger warning at the beginning of the book, which is warranted, but for all the pain, there’s such hope in it, you can’t help but be enchanted by it.
The other I read was ‘Argosy’ by Bella Li, which is poetry as you haven’t seen it before. Li writes poetry in a way that makes you think it’s prose, but it’s most definitely poetry. And each poem is interspersed with a series of art that enhances the experience. Without selling it short, it’s a bit like a picture book for adults, but it’s also so much more than that. It’s an experience that each person much have for themselves and I’m excited to read the other book of hers I have.
Finally, tea for the day, which has been one of the highlights, though today’s experience has been a little bittersweet.
The first tea was had with my friend, she’s a fan of more fragrant teas, and much sweeter teas than I’m ever prepared to drink, but there are enough teas in my cupboard for us to find a happy medium. A tea that will suit the both of us. Recently we’d been exploring green teas that I’d brought home from Japan, but tonight she was looking for something warm and comforting, so we settled on the signature tea from the tea shop in Carcassonne. It smells exceptionally fruity and sweet when it’s in the tin, but once brewed it’s very mellow. There’s a definite caramel note to it, which is offset by the slight fruity taste. For a black tea it’s a very easy drink and honestly, I think I like it more because I was drinking it with her.
The other tea is where it becomes bittersweet for me. Anyone who knows me, and who knows my love of tea, will know that I had for years and years, been totally obsessed with white tea. First it was simple white tea, then yin zhen, then white tea from Darjeeling. I considered these a step above any other white tea that you could buy, fresh, elegant and very easy to drink without being overwhelming. It seems though that my palate and has change, and even though this white tea from Darjeeling is still all of those things, as it was the first time I had it at Mariage Frères, now it’s lacking an edge that I’m looking for. It’s a bit too sweet, a bit too easy to drink and I’m looking for a freshness or harsher edge than I’m being given.
So this has been Day Three, it isn’t exactly the day that I had intended it to be, but I’m feeling confident that I can keep working towards the goal I set myself for the week, even if there are fluctuations day to day.